I was packing my things last night and as I was putting my journals in the box I saw my journal back in Africa and I remember the letter we did as an exercise how to hear God by Mama Pamela. I remember crying out the whole day that day because I couldn’t believe God will say that to me. So, Kirsten came to visit me and I was just sharing to her the story and then I said, actually I did that exercise earlier before in our prophetic elective class and Adrienne gave us a couple of minutes to find a place where we can meet God and write down our conversation. We were all shocked for a moment and totally got no idea how to start. So, I went to the big Balboa “Elephant” tree, sat down under it and looked at the sky. Lie down a little bit and started thanking God for the sky and the words just came and my hands just kept on writing like I don’t even have the control of my own self. It’s funny that it was written at the very back of the same journal and I shared it to Kirsten and I was thinking should I share this? After our conversation last night and my devotion this morning I felt I need to share it. So, my conversation with God goes like this, Me: “That is super weird God! You are just so awesome! I was just lying down here thinking if You will protect me from the ants that can bite me, then You instantly comforted me with those gorgeous clouds, it is moving so graciously and beautifully with this patterns, peace and calmness! God: “This is how am I moving in your life. No hurry my chid! Take it slow! It is ‘I’ that will move you.” Me: “But God sometimes I just want to be like those birds and fly and see until where I get.” God: “But you will surely get tired! Yes, you can fly as long as you can and as high as you want but you will get tired! Wait until I move you.” Me: “I’m sorry Lord! Forgive me! Soak me with the tenderness of Your Love and stillness of Your voice.” And suddenly Lord I can only see clear sky, so BLUE! It’s awesome! And those leaves are so beautiful. How come I never see that before? God: “Because you only see what you chose to see.” Me: “So, what else I should expect Lord?” God: “Sometimes you just need to be like that TREE, standing still there, waiting for me to provide and pour out, because I will.” Me: “God I know that Your thoughts are higher. Do it Your way, Lord! I surrender! I give to You all my expectations! All Yours Lord!” I need to go back! As I was sharing that to Kirsten last night when she visited me I stand up and look outside the window and suddenly the Holy Spirit just crashed in and I opened my mouth and said, it’s cool and weird that God gave me a comparison of a tree and why I suddenly read this conversation today? (looking outside) The tree when it’s newly planted in the backyard it’s life and growth depends on watering it every day but as it grows as a tree nobody water it anymore but fully dependent on the natural source of food from God himself. The sunlight and rain that comes from God. When a tree is healthy from the inside you will see the outcome from the outside. You will see rich green leaves. But when a tree is not healthy and dry from the inside, you will see it as well in the outside. It will be covered with brown leaves and dry trunk fighting for survival. When a tree is healthy it will bear fruit when the season is right. But if a tree is not healthy from the inside it will not bear fruit even the season already came. I sat down and I realized that it’s biblical. There is verse in the bible about a tree planted in the riverside I told Kirsten. Instantly in mind I was reminded that whatever experience and encounter we had it has to be evaluated by the scripture. The encounter must match the bible. I realized as well that it is very symbolic. Jesus is the tree of life and we have to be imitators of Him. This morning I resume to where I Stopped in the Gospel of Mark and surprisingly it is the interpretation of the sower and the types of the soil and the parable of the growing seed in Mark 4:13-32. When I got to v26-28, “The Parable of the Growing Seed 26 And He said, “The kingdom of God is as if a man should scatter seed on the ground, 27 and should sleep by night and rise by day, and the seed should sprout and grow, he himself does not know how. 28 For the earth yields crops by itself: first the blade, then the head, after that the full grain in the head.” I was remined that once our responsibility is to scatter the seed but God will do the rest. I remember my conversation with Kirsten last night. I was reminded both that when I was new, my mentor put a seed on me and watered it for a while but then afterwards I have to be that tree in full knowledge of what God can do on His own. So, I searched for the verse I mentioned to Kirsten and here it goes, Psalm 1:3 (NKJV) 3 He shall be like a tree Planted by the rivers of water, That brings forth its fruit in its season, Whose leaf also shall not wither; And whatever he does shall prosper. When I had that conversation with God I totally did not meditated back what He meant. I also got no idea back then that He will move me somewhere else after more than a year now. But I guess God always knew the right time I need to process His word. I decided I will paint Psalm 1:3. Art is one form of worship and I am so glad that God gave me this moment today to reflect on what kind of tree I want to be. I want to be the tree in Psalm 1:3. When you read the full context of it you will love even more to be that tree. 😊
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