I was packing my things last night and as I was putting my journals in the box I saw my journal back in Africa and I remember the letter we did as an exercise how to hear God by Mama Pamela. I remember crying out the whole day that day because I couldn’t believe God will say that to me. So, Kirsten came to visit me and I was just sharing to her the story and then I said, actually I did that exercise earlier before in our prophetic elective class and Adrienne gave us a couple of minutes to find a place where we can meet God and write down our conversation. We were all shocked for a moment and totally got no idea how to start. So, I went to the big Balboa “Elephant” tree, sat down under it and looked at the sky. Lie down a little bit and started thanking God for the sky and the words just came and my hands just kept on writing like I don’t even have the control of my own self. It’s funny that it was written at the very back of the same journal and I shared it to Kirsten and I was thinking should I share this? After our conversation last night and my devotion this morning I felt I need to share it. So, my conversation with God goes like this, Me: “That is super weird God! You are just so awesome! I was just lying down here thinking if You will protect me from the ants that can bite me, then You instantly comforted me with those gorgeous clouds, it is moving so graciously and beautifully with this patterns, peace and calmness! God: “This is how am I moving in your life. No hurry my chid! Take it slow! It is ‘I’ that will move you.” Me: “But God sometimes I just want to be like those birds and fly and see until where I get.” God: “But you will surely get tired! Yes, you can fly as long as you can and as high as you want but you will get tired! Wait until I move you.” Me: “I’m sorry Lord! Forgive me! Soak me with the tenderness of Your Love and stillness of Your voice.” And suddenly Lord I can only see clear sky, so BLUE! It’s awesome! And those leaves are so beautiful. How come I never see that before? God: “Because you only see what you chose to see.” Me: “So, what else I should expect Lord?” God: “Sometimes you just need to be like that TREE, standing still there, waiting for me to provide and pour out, because I will.” Me: “God I know that Your thoughts are higher. Do it Your way, Lord! I surrender! I give to You all my expectations! All Yours Lord!” I need to go back! As I was sharing that to Kirsten last night when she visited me I stand up and look outside the window and suddenly the Holy Spirit just crashed in and I opened my mouth and said, it’s cool and weird that God gave me a comparison of a tree and why I suddenly read this conversation today? (looking outside) The tree when it’s newly planted in the backyard it’s life and growth depends on watering it every day but as it grows as a tree nobody water it anymore but fully dependent on the natural source of food from God himself. The sunlight and rain that comes from God. When a tree is healthy from the inside you will see the outcome from the outside. You will see rich green leaves. But when a tree is not healthy and dry from the inside, you will see it as well in the outside. It will be covered with brown leaves and dry trunk fighting for survival. When a tree is healthy it will bear fruit when the season is right. But if a tree is not healthy from the inside it will not bear fruit even the season already came. I sat down and I realized that it’s biblical. There is verse in the bible about a tree planted in the riverside I told Kirsten. Instantly in mind I was reminded that whatever experience and encounter we had it has to be evaluated by the scripture. The encounter must match the bible. I realized as well that it is very symbolic. Jesus is the tree of life and we have to be imitators of Him. This morning I resume to where I Stopped in the Gospel of Mark and surprisingly it is the interpretation of the sower and the types of the soil and the parable of the growing seed in Mark 4:13-32. When I got to v26-28, “The Parable of the Growing Seed 26 And He said, “The kingdom of God is as if a man should scatter seed on the ground, 27 and should sleep by night and rise by day, and the seed should sprout and grow, he himself does not know how. 28 For the earth yields crops by itself: first the blade, then the head, after that the full grain in the head.” I was remined that once our responsibility is to scatter the seed but God will do the rest. I remember my conversation with Kirsten last night. I was reminded both that when I was new, my mentor put a seed on me and watered it for a while but then afterwards I have to be that tree in full knowledge of what God can do on His own. So, I searched for the verse I mentioned to Kirsten and here it goes, Psalm 1:3 (NKJV) 3 He shall be like a tree Planted by the rivers of water, That brings forth its fruit in its season, Whose leaf also shall not wither; And whatever he does shall prosper. When I had that conversation with God I totally did not meditated back what He meant. I also got no idea back then that He will move me somewhere else after more than a year now. But I guess God always knew the right time I need to process His word. I decided I will paint Psalm 1:3. Art is one form of worship and I am so glad that God gave me this moment today to reflect on what kind of tree I want to be. I want to be the tree in Psalm 1:3. When you read the full context of it you will love even more to be that tree. 😊
Lights Ministry is the first ministry I did for the church before about 3 years ago. One time somewhere in those three years i posted this photo taken by my mentor salem and put caption "bring light to the world." I was so amazed when i saw the fb memories recap yesterday because I know in my heart how I am fulfilling this very line today. There is always power in vision! A man without vision is totally lost. If you don't have an aim or a target you will never have a plan. We all have our purpose on this lifetime, pair it with a vision! Keep moving forward. Don't be fearful to try and fail. Life is like that. It's a trial and error until you find the answer. And it will be a continious question and answer portion. Once one question is done you need to solve another one other wise you will stop in the middle of the road. Your journey will never be full. I desired to bring that light of Jesus to the world few years ago. I may not have been in the whole world but at least I've already started somewhere. Everything is a process and there should be a progress. What's your vision my friend? What do you want to take part on the great commission? When will you take part? Live life Now • Bring the Light of Jesus Everywhere • Love Every Human Beings As possible as you can • Preach the Gospel to every Creature. #travelforJesus #light #love #lovemuch #allforJesus #allglorytoGod #Lifetothefullest #life #passion #calling #ministry #christianlife #greatcommission #onelife #onepurpose #oneGod I'm finally back in my second home. What a long journey back home and when I was about to rest suddenly i missed the kids. Then tears started coming again. I just missed those kids. It's like part of my heart was left there in Chiang Mai. Then i scroll to my gallery again and saw my collage of my last night with them where in they Really slept later than usual to spend time with us before we leave. They really hugged us like they don't want us to go. I missed all of them with all my heart. Thank You Lord for breaking my heart once again with so much to witness out there. Your love is overwhelming. 😭😭😭😭 I will pray to never get tired on serving You. I believe when the big flood that drowned the world before in times of Noah and killed basically eveyone except those pairs on board. A pair of male and female different animals and humans "the family of Noah". Then after the flood went down rainbow show up to remind the people of God's covenant to the people and all pairs on board can start all over again. Now I have this wild theory. Hear me out. Maybe, just maybe the dinosaurs got extinct because they failed to listen to the instruction, and both males or both females went on board. So after the flood went down and rainbow comes up. All species went out the dinosaurs looked at each other and said: "Oww Crop! What a mess? How are we gonna do this? We are just us? What a Mess!!!!" Then yeah time goes by just the two of them then boom.. They are out of the history. You know what I think what goes in their mind that time, "the feeling was like the rainbow which is the promise of God all went black! All gone. Dissolved! All the colors just nothing. They are bound to extinction. Well, that is just my theory that actually make a lot of sense! Think about it people! #rainbowwentblack #extinction #twisted #Godspromise #rainbow Today before the session 5 of kids one conference started I had huddle with the local congregation for kids since I will be serving with them as the host. Then Ps Hong Teck was looking at me and after the prayer and briefing He approached me saying the He heard alot about me going for mission trips in different countries for the children, most specially the orphans. I shared with him the calling I had and we exchange sharing and eventually I mentioned him the next trip I will be having in one month time and I am glad that I guess the time is about to come. God asked me to go out and learn! He sent me everywhere so I can open my eyes and heart and soul even more. He want me to see. He want me to feel. He want me to witness and know what I am signing off. He want to soften my heart even more seeing those different kids out there. And Now is the time to be engage. Ps Hong Teck asked me of the potential of seeing a longer term of connection with the kids I am visiting and take the church with me whenever God calls me. I believe the time is now and I asked for him to pray for me dor wisdom and direction and praying that this coming trip will open a new opportunity for the expansion of the kingdom of God! Isn't it amazing when we get the chance to be prayed for by our leaders and Pastors! Sis Daphne even blessed me with materials I can bring along to bless the kids in Thailand. I am overwhelmed! We are called to make an influence in a way that people will see the kingdom of Heaven goes down on earth through us. May we always respond to the call of God! Not just respond and answer and Give God a yes but do nothing. Act Upon It! Thank You Lord for the opportunity to serve you! 😊😊😊🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Glory to Your Name Always! It's an honor and priviledge to be serving our younger generations. Whenever I'm with the adults what I always get is new learning and being empowered!!! The adrenaline is there! It's like there is always that hype and sudden rush to move high and go and be ready to be sent out. Like, come one! Bring it on! But when I'm serving the little ones, teaching them and watching them it's totally different. I receive a fresh revelation and fresh annointing. God always brings me back to the foundation and core of my calling. Instead of going up. I go down and I look down! It's not because I am looking at little kiddoes but because God is drawing my eyes down. Everytime I see the kids my heart is always being shaped by God! So earlier while worshipping with the kids God reminded me again of how to have a CHILDLIKE FAITH! I repeat the same prayer, "God help me to be like the children always. Help me to be like them, always eager to learn new things. They always long to be teached. Lord help me to be fully dependent on your leading always. Remind me that I am not capable enough to lead my own self and I need you to guide me, to feed me, to take care of me, to love me, to protect me and direct me. Thank you Lord for more than teaching the Kids they always teach me back." "Our little ones right now will be our future leaders, ministers and worshippers. If they will be guided properly by the word of God imagine how does the world in the next few years will look like? If somebody did bring the love of God to the abandoned children and less fortunate they could have been saved from the wrong path of poverty, violence and crime." That is the call i received from God last ACTS CONFERENCE. That is what God put in my heart and I know God will equip me and you to build His new generation! 😊😊😊😊 Praise the Lord! Matthew 18:3 And he said: "Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. #hopeconf15 #kiddoes #kidzlove #kidatheart #passion #calling #loveforservice #LoveofGod #Godsmove #ministry #kidsministry Today , since it's friday I decided not to cook my lunch and have a good meal at starbucks near my workplace to finally read the last parts of the book i am reading. Gosh, this book is full of real life encounter with God. Amazing encounters, revelations and more. As I was reading it near to the end and came to the part of the 3 great crusades held by the three great evangelist of those times, i began writing down their names to learn more about them. First, T.L Osborne 1951, next was Roberto espinosa 1956 and finally someone I know, Billy graham 1958. Their crusade was wow just from reading it how much more if I'm there. I read about how the enemy really worked to stopped them but God will always win. "Those encounters still bear fruit up to this date", After reading that I suddenly looked what year this book was published and it was 2005. Amazing isn't it? Almost finishing the book, i was moved again. Everytime i open this book God will reveal new things to me and today while I was reading it how I wish I can share to you all that I felt and read to make you all know why I actually asked today and seek that time to the Lord: "Someday, I will witness and experience these things first hand. In God's time! Praise God for all He have done on those peoples's lives and looking forward for the great things He will do in my life. This photo is so cute I can't help but post. When I'm looking at those feet and slippers keychains with our names I can't help but imagine all of us in the life group walking together for the kingdom of God, Any where and every where. Today God I pray for everyone You have called in Your Name, to serve and honor you, that we will always walk and even run for your glory. That our feet will always be willing to take extra steps just to bring the good news to every one we can reach. I pray that we will always be courageous to boldly make a step even we are not sure what lies head (FAITH!!!). Thank You for everything Lord! In Jesus Name I pray! Anen! Many times I heard that when the enemy tried to disturb you a lot you are actually doing great things for the Kingdom of God and the beast is so eager to try its best to distract you. I have read in some of my books also about how the enemy will work and one in particular is the latest one i have read where in the devil came into his room and sat on the foot of his bed and laughed at him saying: "here you are edwards, in Panama preaching that Jesus Christ is the same today as in yesterday and that He is the Healer. Look at yourself." Because he and his whole family was sick because of malaria from a mission trip." The missionary evangelist raised up in bed and said, "old devil, in Jesus Name, I am going to knock you for a loop!" Then edward immediately got healed from malaria, and God blessed him in the healing ministry. Why am I sharing this? Well, because of what happened last night. This past few days i kept on having bad dreams where I can't remember exactly when I woke up, part of it yes but I cannot connect the puzzle. Everytime I woke up my phone is not playing the worship songs I usually turn on before sleeping because for most people that know me they knew that one habit I can not take apart from me is playing songs when sleeping because my brain can't shut down on its own and I am very sensitive so my sleep is very shallow one. I need to hear the songs playing when I wake up so I can easily go back to sleep. So this past few this I could not figure out why everytime I wake up almost same timing my phone is nothing and it's not even in the application it's totally not. So what I will do is raised up and turn on the apps again. I notice it kept on happening so I shift my sleeping position back to the original. My head near in the extension so I can reached to my phone easily when it's charging. Last night was no difference exept I was awake when it happened. Same thing I was having a bad dream about Snakes. Then I woke up. I cannot remember what exactly the dream is about all i know is there is a snake. I notice my phone is not playing the worship song again and checked it out near my pillow and the apps exit again. It was 3:30am. So i played the song again. Repeat one song only "10,000 reasons" so the music started singing Blessed the Lord oh my soul, and so on. I am about to sleep and turn, facing the wall and the song stopped. I opened my eyes. I tried to listen in the silence for a moment, roll back again reached for my phone and it's in the home screen again. So I played the same music again. Close my eyes. After few lines it stopped again. This time I am beginning to feel some chills I prayed in tongues and asked In Jesus Name to send His angels. I reached out for my phone again. Turned on its torch, changed the song to "the more i seek you". Sing with it, pray in tongues, cast it away in Jesus Name and tried to go back to sleep. I manage to go back to sleep by then. Really, witnessing it like that last night was not a very nice thing to experience but my Jesus is powerful than anything else. To be sure I tried to play the song just now before I write down this experience and it went ok. I guess the devil just want to distract me and disturb me from my sleep. It will somehow weaken me that's why I'm having migraine since last sunday. Well, if that is what it want. I am more than willing to stand and put a fight with my God. One thing I will never forget in the movie: "The Encounter" is when Jesus said: "the disadvantage of being God is that I know! I know all. I have tried to reached out in many ways but i know where he is going and I just can't do anything - FREEWILL" Have you been in a situation when people you loved seems to be on the other side? When you know and your spirit already begins to rebuke them but you still care for them and you've tried your best to show them and tell them the right thing to do but it seems to be not working at all and you get to be disappointed and question, how come they can't hear Gods voice? Why can't they have wisdom? Why can't they turn aways from their flesh? Then you will come to the point that you can not commune with them anymore and all you can do is pray and watch them break apart and fall and fall and fall. I know. But I want to obey God. Sometimes, it's already enough to do your part and let God do His part. Don't you all realize, that it will be twice the pain for those people that loves you to watch you go through the ways and choice you all made apart from God.? Do you think it's easy to just watch you fall into sin and destroy everything and every one around you? It is not. God cries every time. He is not just watching. He is shouting into everybody's heart and soul. Same goes with me. I don't just watch but I pray. I don't abandon someone I just need to flee because it is the right thing to do. It doesn't mean people once with you suddenly moved away and became very far they don't love you anymore. Like God, He hates sin but He doesn't hates the person. Sometimes, it's more of we hate what you have been doing over and over and over again but we don't hate you. We are just waiting for you to make it right with God. That is the only way. Start repenting now. And sin no more. God loves everyone. God is alwas willing to forgive only if we ask. John 14:15 “If you love Me, you will keep My commandments.” 1 Peter 4:8 “Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.” #wisdom #forgiveness #wordofGod #timetoponder #christianlife Think about it. When we lie we will cover it again with another lie and another and another. God is not pleased with lying.Proverbs 6:15-17New King James Version (NKJV)15Therefore his calamity shall come suddenly; |
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